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When Nothing Works…
Then Think;
Maybe they shouldn’t work.  Towards the direction I gallop is not matching with my true heart’s rhythm.
When nothing works, it is time for the hand I have to be reshuffled. 
Then is the time to put the emotions and the learned thoughts aside, and go deep in myself.
When nothing works I could do anything, and be anything for I have an excuse. I could stop following the old patterns; the patterns of mass hypnosis and point any direction I desire and say, that is where I am heading now.
It would be the unavoidable perfect time for analyzing what I really want and have to save my life. 
When nothing works, there is no God like external existence to go to, another living being to plea a rescue. 
There would be me, start working.
When nothing works, that is the time to change the way I think about money, relationships, family and work. New priorities will be bang on because I know exactly what doesn’t work so I can structure and construct what works for me. Happy days…
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Paradox Of Fault, It is Not Your Fault

If it is not my fault the way that I am, whose fault is it?
It can’t be someone’s so it mine, that is how it works.  It is a depressing thought. How can it be my fault?  I didn’t know what to do in this world with this life. Learning it on the way, picking up pieces each day. The thought of all the fault being mine sent me down the rabbit hole. 
Too many thoughts, emotions and too many things to blame. The chosen way to live, stay in and keep minimal interaction with people became the option. It was safe. Fewer faults to bare, to be made, to be carried and to be berried.
 Nothing really changed as a result… 
Change of perspective, better to be in the mouth of a crocodile than in the belly. Crawl up that gob to get to the teeth, girl. 
I burst out this world, as we all know, as you were. Nobody gives a shit about the circumstances our hands dealt with. I don’t know, it is up to us how to play the cards.  I better learn to bluff or it is my fault. 
The faster I accept that it…

Facebook-Art Critiques Should Go For a Date For While

Facebook is an advertising agency. Our friends, associated, shops, big-small companies advertise their products and their lives.
Our lives become our products and we use Facebook to advertise this so someone buys into it. We want to sell our selves.
Sell sell sell…
“I am good at selling, check me out” We announce to the world. At least we think or we ought to think that we announce to the world.
The reach is so little.

There must be another way to go out and meet with people. To present the work and be sincere about our interaction.

We are involved as human beings. At least I’d like to think so.

I have just been to a friend’s house for a 2 artist exhibition. Things can happen outside the gallery spaces. It could be a tackle to get into a gallery space. It is a business, yes and there is nothing wrong with it. Just because I am not represented by anybody doesn’t mean that I am against one. But there it goes, we need alternatives.

Not being represented by a gallery doesn’t also mean tha…

Don't Follow Your Dream

Is it easy to follow your dream?
What Is The Dream?

We are being sold the phrase “follow your dream”, “follow your heart”.
Is it that easy? It sounds as if everything we need is given. We take the ride and dive in. Suddenly, we realize big that we are not equipped. There is a big catch, now we are infected with the idea that we have a dream and that is the best the life offers. When it is so, and we want the best, we carry on limping.
The seek of ointments start. We have caught the worm and dangling at the end of the fishing rode.

“Follow your dream”. We go to the books to figure out “how to”’s.
We buy books, read a little bit. We are exhausted.
Relaxation methods; sold.
Follow your dream. If you don’t have one; I give you one.
Your dream is my profit. Follow it.

Self-help books, methods, tactics, 5 ways to success.
We don’t know what success is so someone tells us what it is.
Success is your big house, success is when others served you in uniforms at restaurants where they all…

How did I feel After My Abortion

Abortion.... It is a decision or should be a personal decision. I almost think it is purely the women's decision. It lies in the mind of a woman. As long as the reasons are known, whatever the decision is or will be, that will be the right one. The future lies bare unknown.

On this blog post, the subject matter is my first abortion. What made me to decide it, how did I go through the process and how I felt afterwards.

Also please remember, this is a personal journey.

I was 21 years old, at my 4th year at the uni, studying chemical engineering. Practically I was about to be cut off from the school from poor attendance to finals. My boy friend of the time just finished medical school. He decided not to carry on to higher medicine studies because he was too tired of studying and working all the time. He moved to a remote village in Turkey, 7 hours drive from where I was living.

I decided to complete my degree and took almost two years worth classes per semestre and nobody but just m…

It Took Me Years to Come Up with An Artist Name, Why?

A name is one of the least and the most important aspects of life. You can be anybody by just changing your name.  The name stands for the definition we put behind it. It is not just letters, it is the concept it holds.

When I I moved to UK and nobody could pronounce my name, I felt I have lost something and gain something else.

What are the principles of that name? What is each letter stand for? What would that name do? Does it feel cold or warm?

If you try to be too clever, you will look not clever. If you try to be something, you will definitely not that thing. Not to justify what or who you are but to keep the simple mindset of who you are becomes the thing which makes you look the way you are.
A dialogue from a movie; If anybody calls you names you would normally dislike it, embrace it, make it yours, own it. That will empower you.
What are you if you need to describe your self in the most simplistic way. Any metaphors you relate yourself with?
Choose one, think on it, justify …

A Type of Men, Creeps in Now Then

I don’t rant but this is an exception.
Out bursts is not nice, reality hit sometimes...
This is about a type of men who think little about i tegrity of women. Unfortunately they creep in life here and there.
Apologies in advance for the tone of the post:

I love my car. It allows me to come back home in the middle of the night where ever I am. I always have fuel in it and try my best to keep it in good shape.

I love my car. It allows me to come back home in the middle of the night where ever I am. I always have fuel in it and try my best to keep it in good shape.

I’ve learned to come back home under any conditions and any shapes. I am not sure why people always think and express their opinion about me to my face, I am a free spirit. What they mean is I don’t mind sleeping around.

I’ve learned to come back home under any conditions and any shapes. I am not sure why people always think and express their opinion about me to my face, I am a free spirit. What they mean is I don’t mind sleep…